Tuesday, January 24, 2012

In loving memory: Buffy bids farewell to her hygroma, osteomyelitis and tumor.

Note: This post is rather detailed but I’m neither a doctor nor a vet. I’m sharing these details in hope that other dog owners might detect the signs earlier. Please always seek your vet’s advice and don’t take my sharing as a medical advice. Sometimes, it’s a tough road if you’re going through the same thing, hopefully this post gives you strength.

Buffy was developing some kind of growth in her front right elbow since late 2010 (roughly in the month on August). We always thought it was due to her constant pressure on those spots. She also had a similar growth on her front right elbow. They normally start looking like a dark layer of soft excess skin.

We never thought much of it. Until March 2011, we noticed the growth on her front right elbow was getting larger and her carpal on the same leg was looking swollen.

She would sometimes limp a little.

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In the early years...

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On 17th April, 2011, we took her in for a second check. A radiography (x-ray) was taken on the carpal area and fine needle aspiration (FNA) was performed on her elbow. The vet attending to her was Dr. Ben from Segar Veterinary Hospital.

The diagnosis and prognosis:

Right (F) Elbow: No strange cells were detected. Nothing was detected through the test

Diagnosis: Hygroma, due to constant knocking and hitting on hard surfaces. Hyper dogs are prone to that.

Right (F) Carpal: X-ray showed her carpal area has some bone deterioration.

Diagnosis: Bone infection due to bacterial infection. He did prematurely mention bone cancer but said it’s too early.

Prescription: Rimadyl  75mg (pain killer) for 1 tab, 2 times x 10days and Clindamycin 15mg (antibiotic for bacterial infection)  2tabs, 2 times x 10days.

Vet’s advice: Try to bolster her elbow with socks/elbow guard and keep her favourite spot well-cushioned.

Result: In 1week, her hygroma and the swelling reduced in size.

But in April, her hygroma came back. She was limping again. We took her into UPM Veterinary on 21st of April, 2011 and she was prescribed to same medications as above with an additional one: Metronidazole 400mg 2tabs, 2times x 6days, also a kind of antibiotic that works well with Clindamycin. The vet attending to her was Dr. Grace from UPM Veterinary Hospital.

Her condition didn’t worsen nor improve; I took her in to UPM for an assessment on27th April, 2011. X-ray was taken and her elbow and carpal condition remained the same.

Since her condition didn’t worsen, we assumed the medication is helping stabilize her so she was prescribed to another 2weeks on similar antibiotics.

Occasionally her growth on the elbow would get harder and sometimes ulcerated. We kept it bandaged to prevent infection. As a result of the bandage, her carpal would swell up more due restriction of blood flow.

We tried carpeting her floor, elbow guards, changing her bandages frequently but nothing helped much. We took her for another opinion and that vet, suggested to try a different antibiotic – Doxycline. That too didn’t show remarkable results, only keeping her pain at bay.

Too much antibiotic is also known to be harmful for her internal organs; hence we gave it a break. We noticed, without antibiotics she was in more pain and moved less.

On 11TH May, 2011, I took her to UPM again. This time a new vet was attending to Buffy and we took x-ray of her carpal and elbow area. No new diagnosis except to continue her medication.

On June 8th, 2011, I took her into UPM again. This time chest radiography was done because the vet in charge – Dr Sylvia suspected an unusual breathing pattern. Her x-ray revealed she had a heart condition. A scotch tape test and blood test was done.

The diagnosis and prognosis:

Right (F) Elbow: Scotch tape test didn’t show any harmful cells

Diagnosis: No new development

Right (F) Carpal: X-ray showed her some bone deterioration in the carpal area. No improvement or worsening.

Diagnosis: Bone infection called Osteomyelitis and possibility of Osteosarcoma (bone cancer)

Heart: X-ray was done

Diagnosis: Heart beat irregular

Prescription: Multico, Fortekor 10mg for 2weeks and Clindamycin 15mg (antibiotic for bacterial infection) 2 1/2tabs, 2 times x 14days.

Vet’s advice: Try to bolster her elbow with socks/elbow guard and keep her favourite spot well-cushioned.

Result: Occasional improvement in her physical ability but seemed dependant on antibiotics.

I took her in on 24th June, 2011, Dr Sylvia ruled out Osteosarcoma and that gave me great relief. But Osteomyelitis was still in the picture. Same medications were prescribed to her.

Despite all the test, medications and constant irritation of her right limb, Buffy never showed any lack of excitement for life. We were asked to keep her activities to a minimal due to her heart condition.

She had great appetite and enjoyed going for walks. She’d limp on some days, but never stopped her from begging us for a walk. Besides that, she never failed to throw a mean bark at suspicious passerby.

Her eyes glowed and her desire for her normal way of life was very evident.

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Taken on 29.8.2010

Again on 24th October, 2011, I took her to UPM in hope for new remedy for poor Buffy. Dr. Munira didn’t give me any new diagnosis after looking at the x-ray. Her carpal didn’t look too different from her past x-rays.

By this point, I was beginning to wonder if the vets in UPM went through her past medical history before sending her off with the same diagnosis. Or if they have ran out of ideas to detect what is causing this growth. Her growth in her elbow has ulcerated and gotten infected with pus. We just couldn’t get it to close up.

Our floor would be smeared with blood stains and smell of infection filled our living area. That didn’t deter us from keeping her indoors because it gave her so much joy staying close to us. We hoped for improvements and it seemed far-fetched on some days.

Watching her lay helplessly would sadden me a great deal. On some days, she showed no signs of pain. We saw how hard she fought to be normal and we never treated her any different because of her condition.

Somewhere during the month of November, I took Buffy in to see a new vet that was recommended by a friend. St. Angel Medical Animal Centre in Puchong. We met Dr Ding. He said the open wound in her elbow could have caused the infection to her carpal and didn’t rule out Osteosarcoma. He also suggested making an appointment to meet Dr Gayathri from UPM, who apparently is the cancer specialist there.

On 30th December, 2011, I took her into UPM again. A new vet was attending to her, Dr Ong. She conducted some x-rays and brought up Osteosarcoma again. There goes that word!. She suggested I meet up with Dr Gayathri, to my suprise, it was the same Dr. Suggested by Dr. Ding. What a coincidence.

I saw that as a good sign.

We went back in to see Dr Gaya on the 5th January, 2012. She was very detailed in her procedures and gave me very clear understanding of Buffy’s situation.

Based on Buffy’s medical history with UPM, she had 2 possible diagnosis: Fungal infection or tumor.

She suspected it to be more of a fungal bone infection instead of a bacterial bone infection, hence none of the antibiotics worked well (because they were for bacterial infections). She still called it Osteomyelitis.

Her second possible diagnosis was tumor. She didn’t think of this as the possible cause of her condition. That gave me comfort.

When she finally had one look at Buffy’s elbow which is ulcerated at this point, she immediately said, ‘it’s tumor’ My heart sank. I couldn’t believe what I’ve just heard.

She took impression smears, blood test and radiographs of her front leg.

The diagnosis and prognosis:

Right (F) Elbow: Impression smears - Cytology

Diagnosis: Malignant Tumor (quite an aggressive one, actively dividing)

Right (F) Carpal: X-ray showed that the metacarpals/digits (knuckles) have bone deterioration as well. In the past it was only the carpal area. It has worsened.

Diagnosis: Bone infection called Osteomyelitis due to fungal and bacteria

Blood sample Result: Red blood cell was good, Kidney good, Liver normal, cogulation parameters good. White cells build up due to infection.

Prescription: Multico, Clavamox, Metronidazole, Piroxicam

Vet’s recommendation:

Amputation of her front right leg was her best vote. Local removal of the mass is possible but might have suture breakdown, causing long term healing repercussion. She might have to go in for several surgeries to fix the wound if it keeps opening up. Not recommended as Buffy is a heart patient.

Plus, there is a possibility of the tumor cells flaring up due to the removal of the local mass.

Amputation came with its own set of challenges too. She could lose a lot of blood.

Lastly, there is still a possibility of the tumor cells spreading to lungs, liver and spleen.

It wasn’t an easy decision to make. If we didn’t take any action, the tumor cells would spread to her body. Her wound would get larger and more ulcerated.

If we did opt for amputation, there’s a risk she could die on the surgery table because she’s a heart patient. She could also lose a lot of blood and there’s no guarantee the tumor cells could spread to her organs.

Either way, it was a tough decision.

We took 1 week to deliberate over it. I also took her to see Dr Ding of St. Angel Animal centre again for his take. He too was prone towards the amputation. Giving us assurance that Buffy would be able to live well for few more years if the surgery were successful.

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Buffy’s favourite sitting position. She’s a lady at times.

After much consideration and weighing, we sent Buffy in on the 16th of January, 2012 for amputation. She had the best specialist attending to her at UPM. The orthopaedic operating her was one of the best in the country, Dr Loqman of UPM, Veterinary.

I felt more certain that Buffy was going to make it out alright.

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Taken on 29.8.2010

For some unforeseen circumstances, Buffy’s operation was pushed to the next day. She had to go through some test and Dr Loqman was also on another duty.  He was still keen to operate Buffy and pushed the operation to the next day.

I went to visit Buffy on the 16th noon, to see how she was doing. She was in her ward and seemed rather quiet but was very happy to see me.

I sat with her and assured her it was going to be alright. I gave some treats and left our t-shirts as comfort reminders.

The next day, when Buffy got sedated, the doctor in charge, Dr Siti, called to update me on her status. Half way through surgery around 12.30noon, she called me again assuring that she’s stable but it’s not over yet.

She also told me that Dr Loqman decided to amputate from her scapula as its best. To promote faster healing and to be sure no tumor cells are left in her right limb.

The surgery took 4 hours. I got a call around 4-ish that Buffy is out of surgery and is stable. I was so damn relieved.

I went over to see her at 5.15pm. I had some problems trying to get visiting rights. That’s another story altogether – read post title: ‘pathetic precious 5 minutes’

When I got in, I saw her lying with a huge bandage over her chest. She was lying on her side that just got amputated. I couldn’t see the effect of it because it was bandaged. Nonetheless, it wasn’t easy to see your dog with 1 less leg.

Her eyes were open, she looked stable. I touched her belly and spoke to her. She was reacting to my voice. She made some movements. I was so glad to see her alive. She even tried to get up twice. Dr. Gaya who walked in not long after, advised me to not excite her too much as she needs to rest.

I was so certain she’d make it out. I didn’t say goodbye to her as I was so confident i’d see her the next day and the day after. I was planning the visiting times with Dr Gaya up to the end of the week before I left.

I left the hospital knowing she’d going to be home soon. She’s always been a fighter. I left the hospital around 6.30pm to visit my friend Che, who is visiting from Slovakia.

At 7ish, my phone rang and it was the UPM vet’s no. my heart skipped a little faster. It was Dr Sylvia on the phone. I could hear was she was saying but it didn’t make sense to me. She repeated it twice, “Shuba I have a bad news to tell you, after you left, Buffy had breathing problems and she passed away.”

It was surreal to hear her say that because I just saw her, trying to get up to greet me. How can something so strong willed be dead?

It didn’t sound right. I stopped by the side of the road on the way to Mid Valley, and tried to make sense of it but all I could do was fight back tears.

I couldn’t breathe nor think straight. I called my husband, told him the news and his reply was, ‘fucking hell.’ He told me to stay where I am and he’d come get me.

He called Dr Sylvia and organised the next steps.

We went over to UPM at 9pm to pick up her up. Some say, seeing is believing, but my eyes couldn’t believe what I saw.

The same buffy I saw at 6.30pm for the last time was alive and now she’s lifeless and blue.

My beautiful Buffy is gone.

I am reminded again, how unpredictable life is.

We drove her home in our car and it seemed so morbid. We put her on the floor and took time to say our goodbyes. Janice was also here to see her.

All three of us, buried her that same night. I guess, Buffy wanted all 3 of us to send her off.

She had a great life.

She gave it her all.

She never held back.

She continues to live in our hearts.

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Those loving eyes can melt your heart.

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Remembering Buffy deep within our hearts: 18.6.03 – 17.1.2012

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

5 pathetic precious minutes

‘ 5 pathetic precious minutes ‘                                  

Dear Puan Hasina from Wad Kesayangan Haiwan UPM,

You’ve probably heard that my dog Buffy from wad no. 27 passed away yesterday (17th January).

She came out of her surgery yesterday and I was given verbal permission by Dr Gayathri that I could see her after 6pm. I called you at 5.15pm from the UPM parking lot expressing my desire to see her. Instead you turned me away brashly, saying, “It’s after visiting hours and we all are going home”

I highlighted to you that I’m here because I was informed by Dr Gayathri that I could see my dog since she gave me the instruction. You retorted rudely, “she’s in training for 3 weeks and she’s not here now and didn’t give me any notice”

At this point, I was already disappointed at the inconsiderate rudeness and the lack of professional etiquette to solve this discrepancy internally. It shouldn’t be an outsider’s responsibility to ensure the needed paperwork/permission is granted to the right parties. All we want is to see our beloved four-legged friend after an intensive surgery.

Mind you, my dog just came out of a major surgery, she is a heart patient and has a tumour and had to be amputated. The very fact that she made it out of a 4 hour surgery was already a miracle and all I wanted was to give her strength and encouragement.

Luckily, I also remembered another doctor’s name – Dr Siti. I mentioned her name as well, then you negotiated with her and eventually granted me a ‘pathetic 5 minute’ visiting time.

I wasn’t entirely pleased but I took whatever I got just to see her face.  When I got in, I saw how rudely you spoke to your fellow colleagues and Dr Gayathri (who showed up coincidentally to visit her cases). I was shocked to see how you screamed saying, ‘I nak balik dah ni’, and ‘no visitor after 6pm

As an outsider I was appalled to see this unwillingness and rudeness not just to me but also to the internal staff. You were rude in your demeanor and I got to see your lack of professionalism and was surprised you’re still at your job. The way you acted doesn’t do justice to UPM and the hard work the vets put in. I’ve been so pleased with the professional conduct of all the vets who’ve I’ve encountered so far. And one bad apple shouldn’t ruin the whole bunch.

My dog Buffy, passed on few minutes after I left. My heart sank.

Imagine if you didn’t grant me that time at all? I wouldn’t have gotten the chance to see my dog alive for the last time.

That 5 minute gave me the chance to remember her trying to get up to greet me. Soon after I left, she had breathing problems and passed on.

I hope the next time you turn away dog owners who desperately want to see their dog after a major surgery, you will think of how that ‘5 minutes’ you granted me helped me record a lasting image of my dog alive.

I’m glad I got my last 5 minutes; though short it gave me a strong mental picture of my beautiful dog.

I wonder how many desperate dog owners didn’t get that chance because you had to leave at sharp 6. You’re working in a department that heals animals and that requires compassion and gentleness.

I know there are rules, but there’s also such a thing called compassion and that’s when you use your heart to make the discretion. Good examples of some vets who go beyond their line of work are Dr Sylvia and Dr Gaya who’ve not only shown me dedication and professionalism but also a lot of heart.

Thank you for granting me that ‘5 minutes’

Note:

The visiting hours in UPM are currently from 11am – 12noon and 2.30pm – 3.30pm (Mon – Thursday), on Fridays 11am – 12pm, on weekends it’s based on appointments with your vet.  If you get permission from the vet in-charge you can visit them after visiting hours.  Ensure you check the timing as they do get revised.

So, don’t give up if you encounter a rude staff, know your rights!

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In loving memory, Buffy the boxer.

Tuesday, October 11, 2011

Showered with love

My days are never ordinary.
Particulary when working from home
A day of stress diffused by their constant roam
They'll find me and stay close
The warmth fills me like flower bloom
I get my work done surrounded with so much love.

Buffy and Hera, my heroines.

Sunday, September 25, 2011

In your memory Mercury...

Your presence still burns like a candle
Not a day passes by without you
Memories of you plays instantly
When I head out, when I come back
Always a moment gazing your burial home
Tears streams down naturally
Always loving you


Thursday, September 1, 2011

A dog can teach you a thing or two about life

Buffy is my female boxer.        

As a puppy she didn't look or show much toughness in her character, except for her great appetite for food and keenness in taking showers. She'd run away at the sight of cats and didn't know how to throw a mean bark.
Buffy is now 8 years old and she's grown into a beautiful strong dog. I think it's from the many challenges life throws at her.
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She's been through numerous life threatening experiences. One of it was the constant fight for her space around Mercury. Mercury was my 6 year old ferocious Great Dane mix Napolean Mastiff.  Mercury and Buffy has had numerous ugly bloody fights. In almost all of them, we had to pull them apart or one of them would have gotten killed.  I've read, breaking up a fight between 2 dogs is a dangerous and risky affair and I must say, I agree with that entirely.
Somehow, miraculously I've/we've always managed to pull them apart and Buffy is always the one with major damage. She's gotten her ear torn, deep bloody bites on her neck and chest.  These fights kept repeating numerous times, and during those fights, I've wondered if this will be Buffy's last fight.
The more they fight, the more determined Buffy stands her ground. No matter how many times Mercury buries her teeth in Buffy's neck; she'd heal and move on.
Sometimes, I could see the fear in her eyes when Mercury is around. Despite the fear, Buffy would gather her courage and walk pass Mercury if needed.
That's Buffy for you. Stubborn like a bull.
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Buffy keeping her distance from Mercury (black-grey coat)
About a year ago, Buffy was diagnosed with pyometra.
 {Pyometra is a serious infection of the womb. It generally affects older dogs, soon after they are in season (estrus/heat). It is most commonly treated by surgery, and if not treated, it is often fatal.
The signs of pyometra are often not specific, and your dog may just appear to be 'under the weather'.  The most obvious symptom of open pyometra is a discharge of pus from the vulva in a Female that has recently been in heat. However, symptoms of closed pyometra are less obvious. Symptoms of both types include vomiting, loss of appetite, depression, and increased drinking and urinating. So, it is important to be aware of this condition and its potential severity. }


We found out what she was having and admitted her into an emergency vet the very same night. After ultrasound and blood test, the vet told us it was serious. Her uterus had enlarged and if she doesn't operate immediately she might not make it.

The surgery was too expensive so I tried to take her to another vet the next day, hoping it would be cheaper. Buffy was advised not to move too much because it could cause the uterus to burst and that would be fatal.

Eventually, after travelling up and down, we decided to go ahead with the surgery at the first vet we admitted her in; Segar Pets Centre & Veterinary Services 2 Jalan Manis 3, Taman Segar, Cheras, 56100 Kuala Lumpur.  Tel: 03-9133 4192.

Reason being, the vet I was hoping for couldn't act fast enough and seemed less concerned. I didn't want to take any further risks.

The operation was successful but the vet, Dr Ben told us, 'it's up to her now'

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When they carried Buffy into the kennel, I was extremely sad to see her looking lifeless. It was tough for me to leave her there. I came in every morning to see her. She hadn't eaten and didn't look good. I was getting more worried. Every day, I'd go in and hope she'd improve. I'd force-feed her by wiping some soft food on her muzzle, she'd have no choice but to lick it off out of irritation, and that's how she'd eat for days.

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Dr Ben, checking on Buffy's progress.

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Dr Ben removing Buffy's stitches        

On some days, I'd bump into different doctors who're on duty, and the not-so- positive ones would say, "She doesn't look good". I'd immediately blacklist that veterinarian out of my sight and only speak to Dr Ben, the vet who operated on her. He was more optimistic and certainly way more caring than the rest.

I think by day 4 she was looking stronger. I'd take her on short walks outside the vet and go back to see her in the evening before they close. I was beginning to smile and feeling more positive that she's going to be alright. Every day I'd look her in the eye and tell her, "you're a fighter Buffy, you'll come out of this"

It felt like we were both lending each other strength. I'd go home with an image of Buffy's eyes staring into mine.

I brought Buffy home on day xx.

That's Buffy for you. A fighter.

6 months ago, Buffy had a growth on her elbow, we learnt it was hygroma, so we provided lots of cushioning in her resting areas and put her on glucosamine. That really helped reduce the swelling. Not long after that, she was suddenly limping. We found out she has osteomyelitis. One some days, she'd only use 3 of her paws but still facing the world full of zest. She was on antibiotics for 2 months. I didn't want to put her on antibiotics anymore and have started on supplements.

She's showing signs of improvement and is walking as normal again.

Recently, Buffy was diagnosed of heart failure.
{In boxers, rhythm irregularities may be present before x-rays show abnormal findings. The lungs of dogs in heart failure are abnormally dense due to fluid build up within them. Unfortunately, pets with this problem do not live long. Medication can prolong the lives of some pets for a while, but most pass on within the year. Big breeds with the severer form may only live a few weeks from the time you notice the problem. A few live as long as two years.}
We're not sure how long she'll live but she's showing no signs of dullness. She's as hyper as she can be. Of course, she toned down a bit but the magical look in her eyes shows me how happy she is.

These days, I minimise her activities and keep her indoors close to me. She enjoys watching and following me around. I talk to her as she watches me and constantly thank her for her presence in my life.
She's now on heart medication for as long as she lives.

I've learnt so much from her.  You can't teach an old dog new trick, but you can learn a thing or two about life from an old dog.
Put a human being in the same position, you'd probably sense sadness in his/her life. Dogs are not attached to material/physical things; probably that's why they don't dwell on their physical inabilities like humans might. They just trudge on.
Now, that's something I learnt from Buffy. As long as you're able, cut your losses and move on.
 Until today, she still performs her duty as a guard dog and watches over me, as protective and loving as ever.
Her illness only slowed down her physical activities but not her zeal.

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Life can throw the largest curve ball at Buffy but she'll somehow hit it back!
That's my Buffy.
She's a fighter through and through.

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Silent Love

She doesn’t need to do much...
Her calm exterior soothes me
Her radiant eyes cheers me



She doesn’t need to say much....
She walks me up to my room and tucks me to bed
She places her head on my lap for attention      
 

         
                                                                                     
She doesn’t need to show much...
Her warm hugs pacifies me
Her playfulness showers me




She doesn’t ask much...

My touch is enough

My hugs are more than sufficient


 






Thank you darling Hera.
You bless me with your presence daily...